It has been awhile since I have written, and to those that read this, I am sorry. Life has gotten busy lately, and some days I feel like I have been going through the motions. One day turns into the next and before I know it, almost a month has passed. Over the past few weeks, I finished my first round of chemotherapy drugs (YEAA!) and I have started on the next cycle where I go weekly for treatment. I ended the first round of chemo on a positive note! Things appear to be shrinking (on physical exam) and my labs have really been holding strong. I had the option of doing this next chemo drug every three weeks or every week- both have the same efficacy, but going weekly is supposed to have fewer side effects and be easier on my body. Three weeks in, I am feeling great. My labs have been holding fairly steady. While they are within norma limits, they have dropped a bit to the middle/lower end of normal.
Over the past few weeks I have been trying to stay healthy in any way I possibly can. I have been focusing on nutrition (which has been an ongoing journey) as well as getting back into the gym. I have met with nutritionists and a naturalpathic doctor. I have been trying to focus on a healthier diet and the natrualpathic doctor has given me a ton of vitamins to take. Things are one day and one step at a time- and some days are not as good as others (because I am still human and like an occasional cheeseburger).
I continue to give this to God and have faith that He has a plan. Some days are challenging. I get in my own way and I allow negative thoughts to take hold. These are the moments I need to have faith and trust God. It isn’t about me. Sure, there are days I wonder, “Why me?” “How did I get here?” “Why can’t my life be normal?” I still struggle. But, I need to remember that my God is bigger than my situation. I find myself challenged. I need to spend more time in the Word. More time in prayer and communion with God. I am reminded that no one is perfect, and my relationship with Jesus is something that I need very much and I am thankful that I have. Those days when I start to feel negative, I am grateful for my faith. I could not imagine going through this without Jesus.
Forged In The Flames 